“Please,” he whispered against Mackie’s skin, voice muffled and broken. “Please, baby. Say there are no feelings involved. I can’t lose you. I can’t do this without you. Just say it. Lie if you have t
Great chapter. I loved the moments with Mackey and Brandon when Tyler gave Brandon a blow job in front of everyone. The fight scene between Brandon and Aaron, as well as the subsequent scandal between Brandon and Mackey, was also superbly done. But the best thing about this chapter is the sex scene between Sidharth and Charlie; it's written very beautifully. I hope there will be more sexy sex scenes with Sid in the future, and with Liam too. Maybe Sid will discover a polyamorous relationship, maybe not. I'm looking forward to the continuation.
P.S.: The only downside to this chapter is the length of Sidharth's penis, which is average, although thick in girth. It would have been better if it had been longer, since Indians have large penises over 24 cm (there are good examples among porn actors).
Hahahaha thank you for the comment! I’m really glad you enjoyed the blowjob scene and the fight between Brandon and Aaron. Those moments were intense to write, especially the emotional weight behind them.
But I have to say… the fact that you said the Sid and Charlie scene was the best part of the chapter made me laugh in the best way. I had a lot of fun writing that one — the chemistry between them kind of wrote itself once they got in the car. I’m happy it landed well for you.
As for wanting more Sid sex scenes (and maybe Liam too)… noted 😂. I won’t say too much, but Sid’s sexual journey is far from over. Whether it goes in a poly direction or something else, we’ll have to see how the characters develop. I’m glad you’re open to it though.
About the P.S. — I appreciate the feedback, but I have to be honest: I write what feels right for the character and the story, not based on stereotypes or averages. Sid’s size in this chapter is intentional. Not every guy needs to be a pornstar-sized monster to be hot or dominant. Sometimes the “average but thick” energy hits different, especially with how I wrote his personality and how Charlie reacted to him. But I respect your preference!
Thanks again for reading and for being so detailed with your thoughts. I’m really happy you enjoyed the chapter overall. luv u babe :)))
I really liked this chapter, I know Brandon hasn't been perfect but fuck, Mackie is a little hoe bitch arrrgggggghhh ….. great writing man this one sent me through a range of emotions.
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OMG. Mackie girl you're pissing me off. Don't play the victim card babe, you're just as at fault as Brandon. And you Brandon, im pissed at you too, you're sleeping on the couch tonight!
The only saving grace for this episode is Liam. Girlie know his worth! He's now my favorite. He's just like me. As a competitive person, i wish to topped my competitors and see my enemies downfall but not to them actually getting hurt and humiliated. The way he immediately pulled Mackie away? Like girl that was his rival and enemy but he didn't want to see him getting hurt and humiliated publicly.
I hope he can Sid can have a beautiful story, though I'm sure Ryan will make it harder for them. Also, when I read Sid's full name why did the literal Buddha came in my mind? Sidharth sounded Siddhartha for a second there lol.
Babeeee, thank you for this comment! When I release this chapter at Patreon most readers get annoyed at Mackie but some also pity him. And I really enjoyed receiving mix reactions and comments.
And Liam was my MVP too babe, his character development will really grow on the next few chapters and Liam is now a fan favorite :))) I'm sure you'll love him more.
I’m not blind, and I’m not going to defend Brandon either. I mean, I WILL defend him, but I’m also capable of recognizing his mistakes. Yeah, he let Tyler suck him. Suck him good. But what really strikes to me was not even the blowjob. Is the fact that EVEN WITH A FUCKING BLOWJOB, Brandon was thinking about Mackie. He was looking at Mackie. He moans Mackie’s name even when he comes inside Tyler’s mouth. So fuckin hot but so fucking... not exactly tragic, and maybe not sad either, so perhaps the word I’m looking for is “frustrating”? They def frustrated me today lol.
But my point is that I totally agree with the other comments: Brandon goes full nuclear, and yeah, perhaps he goes too far to hurt Mackie. I’m honest enough to admit that if I was Mackie, I would leave and Brandon would never hear from me again unless to sign the divorce papers lol. However, I’m not Mackie. And as a reader, I can see both his and Brandon’s sides and motivations... and to me Mackie is the one in the wrong, or MORE in the wrong than Brandon. He’s the one who messes up and refused to even think about how he messed up. Yeah, I know he feels guilty, and I know in the end he made the right choice and chose Brandon. But does guilt even matter when your actions don’t match this vibe? Does a stab stop bleeding just because the stabber feels sorry? No, it doesn’t. And for me, that is the whole point of this chapter regarding Mackie and Brandon. There’re action and reaction. I admit Brandon may have overreacted both with the blowjob with Tyler and the fight with Aaron, but it’s still a reaction. Mackie was the one who ACTED on his impulse to enter this open marriage life, and then later his feelings towards Aaron. And he acted again by lying to Brandon about the messages with Aaron (I’m going to keep coming back here because Mackie was a fucking hypocrite judging Brandon like he did when he wasn’t even man enough to talk about him sending messages to another man. A man, let’s not forget, that is the core reason for their marriage to be in crisis).
After reading this chapter I don’t know how Mackie and Brandon can even continue living in Silver Lake. As I said last chapter, voyeurism, cuckold and kink in general is something you do in secret, behind closed doors, because you had to be capable of facing the world the next day. Family, workplace, even your public image is something that can be deeply affected by rumors of... alternative lifestyles. It’s sad but is the world we live in. And with that public humiliation, Brandon just destroys Mackie right in front of the whole neighborhood. How does Mackie even go to the sidewalk after this? Knowing all of them watch his husband cheat on him right on his face while he was crying like an idiot? Even if not Brandon’s intention, he probably just turned Mackie into the joke of Silver Lake, at least until the next White Party lol. Not to mention, there were recordings of the moment. In some phones, with some families, the memory of Mackie’s humiliation will be a fountain of entertainment forever. Not that I think any of these videos would leak to the internet. I assume this is not the first, neither the last time something like that happens in a White Party in Silver Lake, and if someone tries anything funny like this, Aaron would be the first to hunt that person to the ground to protect Mackie. Too bad he doesn’t have the same energy to protect his own husband like this lol. And looks like I’m defending Mackie here, but my feelings towards him are “you ask for this. You BEG for this”.
At this point, I just despise Aaron too. The very fact that after he almost rape Mackie his first reaction is to call someone else and fuck his brains out. The fact that when Charlie (damn, is always the annoying sluts bringing the facts to the table lol) confront him about cheating on Noah with Mackie his reaction was to say Noah has nothing to do with it... WHEN HE IS MARRIED WITH HIM, FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!! Noah has everything to do whit it, and if Aaron can’t realize even that, is because he doesn’t love Noah as a person, he loves Noah as a possession. There is love, Aaron loves Noah.... Like he loves his house... or his gym...or car... like a possession. Can you understand how deeply flawed and selfish this type of love is? Aaron loves Noah, like one loves a piece of furniture. Aaron came home after fucking another man, while he was thinking about other, with none of them being Noah, and his first reaction is to think “why did Noah not wait for me?” like that was just another Thursday for them (probably lol). Oh, and let’s not even talk about the fact Aaron came with that same bullshit excuse of “Noah is safe, but Mackie is fire”. Is the same excuse used by Rick, and the same used by Jonathan (I think he says thrill, but it’s the same shit), and I HATE that hahaha. Doesn’t make sense to me, like, is it really that bad to be something safe? To share your life with someone without surprises or risks? I would say in Aaron and Noah that is even going one step further. With Rick, he was seduced by that little snake slut Mark, such as Jonathan with the excuse of Noel not being kinky with him. What is Aaron excuse? They had an open marriage, Noah worshiped the ground he steps on, Aaron can fuck ANYONE he wants ANYWHERE at ANYTIME. And that is still not enough for him. All this pure devotion was not enough to make Aaron not want to crave this supposed fire he sees is Mackie. Perhaps Aaron should burn himself to a crisp in his passions to see just how much he fairs without his “safe” since is something so boring for him (and this also can be applied for Rick and Jonathan. Rick, we already know just how much his worthless life is with his “fire” lol).
Sid and Charlie’s sex was hot, like all the sex scenes you do. I love to read about Charlie tasting Sid’s tasty armpits. Damn, that was hot. I was wondering if I was going to feel like it was not nice with Liam but reflecting on it, I realized it was fine. Sid doesn’t own Liam anything, by Liam’s own insistence. No promises were made, and if we’re honest, Sid and Liam still barely know each other, besides their burning attraction. So, the way Charlie devoured Sid’s body and his cock was filthy, sensual and HOT. I love the fact Charlie is Dom Bottom, it’s so rare to see a writer use this kind of character. A bottom who knows just how much his ass is worth to the hungry tops around him lol. The fact that they had an audience to their sex was even better too, I was almost disappointed things didn’t evolve to a full orgy in the middle of the sidewalk, and fuck everyone who may pass by and see them lol. But, sadly, Charlie already drained Sid’s cock at that point. A missed opportunity for sure, it would be a funny sex story lol “remember that time I was at an orgy in the middle of the street? Hahahaha that night was wild”.
Speaking of orgy, Liam was right at the lion's den, right? But at least once, he acts like a lion instead of another rabbit. He detects Ryan’s bullshit fast, because that is not really a novelty for him, right? Liam is attentive; it’s both the boon and the curse of these people to catch up on the little details. Everything Liam saw does not really shock him because deep down is something already expected. Not that I think Liam was expecting to find Ryan hosting a full SEX PARTY for the whole neighborhood... but he knew it was something that would disappoint him. And let’s not forget, Liam was already aware of Ryan’s infidelity. At first, I was wondering what could have possibly made him grow some balls, but then I understood it was probable fear. Fear and the knowledge that this would be a habit. A frequent one. The lies, the hiding, the knowledge of Ryan’s sudden reunions or works trips would just be shallow excuses for him to be with other guys. And the most serious of all: the fact Ryan wanted to separate Liam from his kinky life, like if Ryan’s life was anything but kink. He will never be honest with Liam, he will never respect Liam, and he will never let Liam be really part of Silver Lake because he’s too selfish to let Liam have the same freedoms he has. So, I think Liam was smart about this. He weighs everything he probably would endure in Ryan’s side in the future and realizes it’s not worth it. Good for him, now I want to see if he’s man enough to keep his word.
Holy shit… I just spent a solid ten minutes reading your comment and I’m genuinely impressed. This is one of the longest, most passionate, and most detailed comments I’ve received so far. You didn’t just read the chapter — you dissected it like a surgeon with a scalpel and a lot of feelings 😂 I had to grab coffee before replying because you brought up so many strong points.
First of all, thank you. Seriously. Comments like this are absolute gold for a writer. You’re not just reacting — you’re thinking deeply about motivations, consequences, hypocrisy, and the emotional weight of every decision. I appreciate that more than you know.
Let’s talk about the big ones.
You said you despise Mackie right now… and honestly? I get it. A lot of readers are feeling that heat toward him at this moment. You’re right that he was the one who pushed for opening the marriage, he was the one who crossed lines with Aaron, and then he hid the messages for a whole week while knowing exactly how much it would hurt Brandon. That’s not just a mistake — that’s repeated choices. The “I’m confused” card does feel like a cop-out, and the fact he answered in present tense (“there IS”) instead of reassuring Brandon… yeah, that stings. You nailed the frustration many people are feeling.
At the same time, I love that you’re still able to see both sides. Brandon going nuclear with Tyler in public was cruel and humiliating. You’re correct — even while getting sucked off, Brandon’s mind and eyes were locked on Mackie. He was trying to hurt him as badly as he was hurting. That doesn’t excuse it, but it explains the ugly place it came from. Pain makes people do ugly things.
The Aaron and Noah situation… fuck. You went straight for the throat and I felt every word. Noah has been the one putting in effort to welcome everyone, to make people feel safe, and he keeps getting emotionally gutted for it. The fact that almost no one checked on him after the fight… that one hurts. Noah deserved better in that moment.
Your point about Aaron’s “safe vs fire” excuse being the same tired bullshit we’ve seen before is so sharp. It really does feel like some characters keep using the same justification for their selfishness. Aaron has everything — an open marriage, a husband who adores him, total freedom — and it’s still not enough. That’s a brutal kind of greed.
On the White Party itself… you’re spot on about how public humiliation changes everything. Kink should be private for a reason. Now the whole neighborhood has seen Mackie crying while his husband got sucked off in front of him. That kind of image doesn’t fade easily. Silver Lake is about to feel a lot smaller and a lot more judgmental for both of them.
I also laughed (and cringed) at your point about the recordings. Yeah… phones were out. That’s going to have consequences.
And Sid & Charlie? I’m glad you enjoyed the filthiness of that scene 😂 Charlie really is something else. The armpit moment was extra for a reason.
Liam pulling Mackie out and actually being the voice of reason was one of my favorite surprises too. He’s petty as hell, but he’s not stupid. And you’re right — his decision to walk away from Ryan was probably driven by fear of the future more than anything else. He saw the pattern and chose to protect himself.
Overall, I’m really happy the chapter made you feel this strongly — angry, frustrated, sad, and still invested enough to write this massive analysis. That’s exactly what I was hoping for. The story is in a very dark, messy place right now, and everyone is bleeding in different ways.
Thank you again for taking the time to write such a long, thoughtful, and honest comment. These kinds of deep dives help me so much as I plan the coming chapters. I’m really glad you’re still here riding this chaotic, painful, and sometimes spicy rollercoaster with me.
I’m very curious to hear what you think when you catch up to the newer chapters (no spoilers, I promise). Whenever your brain is ready, I’ll be here waiting for the next novel-length essay 😂
Seriously though — thank you. Comments like yours are why I love writing this story. Thank you so muchhh babe I luv u!
But I’m stepping ahead of things; I not even tell what I think about him rescuing Mackie from that fiasco with Brandon and Tyler. When Liam was first introduced, I thought of him as some petty, stupid guy. I still think he’s petty, but he’s not stupid. Who would think he could be the voice of reason here? And even if Liam doesn’t have all the facts, he raises some very valid questions: why did Mackie just stand there just crying while another man sucked his husband cock? Was because of shock? Or because deep down he was, again, waiting for Brandon to take action so he doesn’t have to deal with anything? I know Mackie wanted to go back after Brandon, and I def think what Brandon did with Mackie is not ok, but every time I see Mackie’s tears, I become a little pissed because it feels like he’s playing the victim. I KNOW he’s genuinely hurt, maybe even confused with how things turned out so wrong and so fast, but right now it really feels like he’s the incapable baby Brandon paints him to be, because it was necessary Liam to slap some sense into him for him to AT LEAST react properly. Maybe that’s what Mackie really needs: someone to slap the shit out of him. I even know who I want this person to be lol.
Brandon and Aaron’s fight was something coming for a long time. And I was rooting for Brandon the entire time. I wish he turned Aaron’s face into mashed potatoes because that is exactly what he deserves. But besides that, being a moment between then, I couldn’t stop thinking about the other victim, perhaps the ONLY victim, of Mackie and Aaron’s actions, and how nobody, not even one second, thinks about him: Noah. He was completely, utterly, totally humiliated. Brandon screamed Aaron was cheating on him, Aaron enters a fist fight for another man and not even THINK about him, despite all his cries for it to stop. It was Mackie’s presence who put a stop to it, who drained the fight out of them, of his husband. How humiliating must that be? How heartbreaking? How confusing, revolting and unfair is that Mackie, Brandon and Aaron humiliate him like that in front of the whole neighborhood the way they did and not for a second any of them think about Noah’s side or the repercussions for him, even after everything Noah did to make the three of them to feel safe and welcomed, to feel like they belong? And I say repercussions because I also feel like Silver Lake is over party for Noah. Not for Aaron, with his muscles and his presence, nobody would ever say anything to his face. But Noah? No one will see him the same again. Now every time Noah talks with someone there, that person will think about the events of that night, maybe mock him on his back, or even worse, pity him. And Noah will be forever haunted by the fact they KNOW. Even more heartbreaking than that is the fact even after the fight ended, Mackie was still the center of everyone’s attention. He was the one people were worried about; the one people wanted to comfort. Even Bret was arguing with Tyler because of what he did with MACKIE. No one, not a single person, not even for a piece of second, not even Bernie and Hunter, reflected that perhaps Noah needed as much care as Mackie at that moment. No, not as much; Noah was the one who needed ALL the care. Mackie doesn’t deserve shit (yeah, I’m angry again writing that hahaha). And I confess I’m extremely pissed off by the preview of the next chapter, knowing Noah will forgive Aaron after this. Aaron doesn’t deserve forgiveness. After this chapter, I really think eventually Noah should demand divorce and leave Silver Lake. He deserves someone better, a real man, who can be kinky as hell with him in an open relationship but respect him as a man and as a partner. And I think Noah needs some better friends too lol.
And then we have Brandon and Mackie’s fight after the White Party, and I can’t even pronounce how PISSED of Mackie that leaves me. That guy was a fucking hypocrite. It happens what I knew it would happen, and I talk about its last chapter: Mackie turned something that is also his fault into Brandon’s fault. How dare Mackie even TALK about “form of emotional domestic abuse under the broadest interpretation of psychological harm”? What about the psychological harm he’s been doing with Brandon? Let’s not forget, Mackie conveniently forgets to tell Brandon about the week of secret texts with Aaron, and now he’s comfortable playing the victim because this is what Mackie does best: let others take the blame for his mistakes. I disagree a little with Brandon saying he treats Mackie that way because of Shay and the firm's problems too. To me, things in their marriage were already shaken ever since the arrangement with Aaron and Noah, and that fracture made Brandon more vulnerable to Shay’s problems, not the other way around. Also, let’s not forget, even in the middle of this shit storm, Brandon was the one trying to fix things. He was the one to say sorry (like I knew he would), even when he had real reasons to be stressed. And he was the one who asks, BEG for Mackie to reassure him there were no feelings involved. He just needed to be reassured at that moment. And of course, being Mackie, he couldn’t do even that. Let me make myself clear here: I don’t want Mackie to LIE; lies would just make things even worse. But the question was “was there feelings?” and he just answered “yes”. There was no reassuring, there was no complement, no “but I had felt for him is nothing even close to what I feel for you”. Mackie just put salt in a wound bleeding, especially because he said, “there IS”, no “there WAS”. Present tense. Feelings for Aaron that persist after everything Aaron did, after everything that went wrong. So, as you see, I really can’t be on Mackie's side in this one. I know Mackie and Brandon are endgame, and I still think Mackie (not Brandon, Mackie) can save his marriage, but right now if they get a divorce and leave each other, I wouldn’t be sad either lol. Mackie for sure doesn’t know how to cherish his own husband. Perhaps Eun Yoo can teach him something or two about that.
Fantastic chapter, Dannieboy! This rollercoaster was intense, but I love to ride it with you!
The alphas (Brandon, Aaron, Ryan, Shay, maybe Sid but we who are on this chapter don’t know yet) are all at some level feeling entitled to have a guy at their side who questions nothing and lets them make decisions. Aaron not valuing Noah & boning everything with a pulse. Brandon feeling like he can keep Mackie’s leash short. Ryan’s treatment of Liam. Sid’s interest in Liam so easily sidetracked by Charlie. Shay feeling like everyone is his to own.
The betas are silently (or not so silently) rebelling in their own attempts to maintain/claim their agency. And it’s messy. Noah compensating by being the caretaker. Mackie actively and knowingly breaking his commitments to Brandon. Liam letting himself dismiss Ryan’s horrible treatment while secretly figuring out if Sid’s a “something”.
Silverlake is its own character here. And a devilish one. It feeds and inspires people’s worst instincts and behaviors. Or maybe it’s just toxic “too many gays in one place becomes toxic and incestuous.”
I’ve been on Teams Brandon & Noah. However, I’m beginning to understand that there’s no purity to be found with any of these guys - and that’s exactly the point.
I also love these long-form chapters, Dannieboy. They give us more context on the woven overlaps and give YOU more runway for character development.
Thank you so much for this comment babe and sorry for the late reply.
I really appreciate how deeply you’re analyzing the story and the characters. You picked up on a lot of the themes I’ve been trying to explore — especially the entitlement of the “alphas” and how Silver Lake seems to bring out the worst (and sometimes the most honest) parts of people.
You’re right that there’s no real “purity” here. Almost everyone is messy, selfish, or hypocritical in their own way. That’s very much on purpose. I didn’t want to write a story where one side is clearly the villain and the other is innocent. Everyone has their own damage, their own desires, and their own justifications. Even the characters we root for (like Brandon and Noah) have done questionable things.
I also love that you mentioned Silver Lake itself feeling like its own character. That’s exactly how I see it — this neighborhood has its own toxic ecosystem. It rewards certain behaviors and punishes others, and the longer people stay in it, the more it warps them. Some characters are thriving in it, while others are slowly breaking.
As for the long-form chapters… thank you. I know they’re long, but I really enjoy giving the characters (and the relationships) enough space to breathe. It lets me show the gray areas instead of just the big dramatic moments. I’m glad you’re enjoying that style.
Your perspective on the alphas vs betas dynamic is really interesting, and I think you’ll see more of that tension play out in future chapters. Thanks again for taking the time to write such a thoughtful comment. It genuinely helps me see the story from different angles.
Keep reading and keep sharing your thoughts! luv u babe :))
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Great chapter. I loved the moments with Mackey and Brandon when Tyler gave Brandon a blow job in front of everyone. The fight scene between Brandon and Aaron, as well as the subsequent scandal between Brandon and Mackey, was also superbly done. But the best thing about this chapter is the sex scene between Sidharth and Charlie; it's written very beautifully. I hope there will be more sexy sex scenes with Sid in the future, and with Liam too. Maybe Sid will discover a polyamorous relationship, maybe not. I'm looking forward to the continuation.
P.S.: The only downside to this chapter is the length of Sidharth's penis, which is average, although thick in girth. It would have been better if it had been longer, since Indians have large penises over 24 cm (there are good examples among porn actors).
Hahahaha thank you for the comment! I’m really glad you enjoyed the blowjob scene and the fight between Brandon and Aaron. Those moments were intense to write, especially the emotional weight behind them.
But I have to say… the fact that you said the Sid and Charlie scene was the best part of the chapter made me laugh in the best way. I had a lot of fun writing that one — the chemistry between them kind of wrote itself once they got in the car. I’m happy it landed well for you.
As for wanting more Sid sex scenes (and maybe Liam too)… noted 😂. I won’t say too much, but Sid’s sexual journey is far from over. Whether it goes in a poly direction or something else, we’ll have to see how the characters develop. I’m glad you’re open to it though.
About the P.S. — I appreciate the feedback, but I have to be honest: I write what feels right for the character and the story, not based on stereotypes or averages. Sid’s size in this chapter is intentional. Not every guy needs to be a pornstar-sized monster to be hot or dominant. Sometimes the “average but thick” energy hits different, especially with how I wrote his personality and how Charlie reacted to him. But I respect your preference!
Thanks again for reading and for being so detailed with your thoughts. I’m really happy you enjoyed the chapter overall. luv u babe :)))
Maybe you need to rest to write with renewed strength)?
Brandon is too good for Mackie, divorce that little hoe.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA would be nice thing for Mackie to process his won divorce and I volunteer myself as the new hubby of Brandon lol
I really liked this chapter, I know Brandon hasn't been perfect but fuck, Mackie is a little hoe bitch arrrgggggghhh ….. great writing man this one sent me through a range of emotions.
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Thank you so muchh babeeee
Mackie’s audacity and mental gymnastics (to see himself as the victim) are astounding.
Mackie wont be happy to hear that babe. You spit facts tho!
OMG. Mackie girl you're pissing me off. Don't play the victim card babe, you're just as at fault as Brandon. And you Brandon, im pissed at you too, you're sleeping on the couch tonight!
The only saving grace for this episode is Liam. Girlie know his worth! He's now my favorite. He's just like me. As a competitive person, i wish to topped my competitors and see my enemies downfall but not to them actually getting hurt and humiliated. The way he immediately pulled Mackie away? Like girl that was his rival and enemy but he didn't want to see him getting hurt and humiliated publicly.
I hope he can Sid can have a beautiful story, though I'm sure Ryan will make it harder for them. Also, when I read Sid's full name why did the literal Buddha came in my mind? Sidharth sounded Siddhartha for a second there lol.
Babeeee, thank you for this comment! When I release this chapter at Patreon most readers get annoyed at Mackie but some also pity him. And I really enjoyed receiving mix reactions and comments.
And Liam was my MVP too babe, his character development will really grow on the next few chapters and Liam is now a fan favorite :))) I'm sure you'll love him more.
Liam and Sid? We'll see about that.
Ok, truth time: I think I despise Mackie hahaha
I’m not blind, and I’m not going to defend Brandon either. I mean, I WILL defend him, but I’m also capable of recognizing his mistakes. Yeah, he let Tyler suck him. Suck him good. But what really strikes to me was not even the blowjob. Is the fact that EVEN WITH A FUCKING BLOWJOB, Brandon was thinking about Mackie. He was looking at Mackie. He moans Mackie’s name even when he comes inside Tyler’s mouth. So fuckin hot but so fucking... not exactly tragic, and maybe not sad either, so perhaps the word I’m looking for is “frustrating”? They def frustrated me today lol.
But my point is that I totally agree with the other comments: Brandon goes full nuclear, and yeah, perhaps he goes too far to hurt Mackie. I’m honest enough to admit that if I was Mackie, I would leave and Brandon would never hear from me again unless to sign the divorce papers lol. However, I’m not Mackie. And as a reader, I can see both his and Brandon’s sides and motivations... and to me Mackie is the one in the wrong, or MORE in the wrong than Brandon. He’s the one who messes up and refused to even think about how he messed up. Yeah, I know he feels guilty, and I know in the end he made the right choice and chose Brandon. But does guilt even matter when your actions don’t match this vibe? Does a stab stop bleeding just because the stabber feels sorry? No, it doesn’t. And for me, that is the whole point of this chapter regarding Mackie and Brandon. There’re action and reaction. I admit Brandon may have overreacted both with the blowjob with Tyler and the fight with Aaron, but it’s still a reaction. Mackie was the one who ACTED on his impulse to enter this open marriage life, and then later his feelings towards Aaron. And he acted again by lying to Brandon about the messages with Aaron (I’m going to keep coming back here because Mackie was a fucking hypocrite judging Brandon like he did when he wasn’t even man enough to talk about him sending messages to another man. A man, let’s not forget, that is the core reason for their marriage to be in crisis).
After reading this chapter I don’t know how Mackie and Brandon can even continue living in Silver Lake. As I said last chapter, voyeurism, cuckold and kink in general is something you do in secret, behind closed doors, because you had to be capable of facing the world the next day. Family, workplace, even your public image is something that can be deeply affected by rumors of... alternative lifestyles. It’s sad but is the world we live in. And with that public humiliation, Brandon just destroys Mackie right in front of the whole neighborhood. How does Mackie even go to the sidewalk after this? Knowing all of them watch his husband cheat on him right on his face while he was crying like an idiot? Even if not Brandon’s intention, he probably just turned Mackie into the joke of Silver Lake, at least until the next White Party lol. Not to mention, there were recordings of the moment. In some phones, with some families, the memory of Mackie’s humiliation will be a fountain of entertainment forever. Not that I think any of these videos would leak to the internet. I assume this is not the first, neither the last time something like that happens in a White Party in Silver Lake, and if someone tries anything funny like this, Aaron would be the first to hunt that person to the ground to protect Mackie. Too bad he doesn’t have the same energy to protect his own husband like this lol. And looks like I’m defending Mackie here, but my feelings towards him are “you ask for this. You BEG for this”.
At this point, I just despise Aaron too. The very fact that after he almost rape Mackie his first reaction is to call someone else and fuck his brains out. The fact that when Charlie (damn, is always the annoying sluts bringing the facts to the table lol) confront him about cheating on Noah with Mackie his reaction was to say Noah has nothing to do with it... WHEN HE IS MARRIED WITH HIM, FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!!! Noah has everything to do whit it, and if Aaron can’t realize even that, is because he doesn’t love Noah as a person, he loves Noah as a possession. There is love, Aaron loves Noah.... Like he loves his house... or his gym...or car... like a possession. Can you understand how deeply flawed and selfish this type of love is? Aaron loves Noah, like one loves a piece of furniture. Aaron came home after fucking another man, while he was thinking about other, with none of them being Noah, and his first reaction is to think “why did Noah not wait for me?” like that was just another Thursday for them (probably lol). Oh, and let’s not even talk about the fact Aaron came with that same bullshit excuse of “Noah is safe, but Mackie is fire”. Is the same excuse used by Rick, and the same used by Jonathan (I think he says thrill, but it’s the same shit), and I HATE that hahaha. Doesn’t make sense to me, like, is it really that bad to be something safe? To share your life with someone without surprises or risks? I would say in Aaron and Noah that is even going one step further. With Rick, he was seduced by that little snake slut Mark, such as Jonathan with the excuse of Noel not being kinky with him. What is Aaron excuse? They had an open marriage, Noah worshiped the ground he steps on, Aaron can fuck ANYONE he wants ANYWHERE at ANYTIME. And that is still not enough for him. All this pure devotion was not enough to make Aaron not want to crave this supposed fire he sees is Mackie. Perhaps Aaron should burn himself to a crisp in his passions to see just how much he fairs without his “safe” since is something so boring for him (and this also can be applied for Rick and Jonathan. Rick, we already know just how much his worthless life is with his “fire” lol).
Sid and Charlie’s sex was hot, like all the sex scenes you do. I love to read about Charlie tasting Sid’s tasty armpits. Damn, that was hot. I was wondering if I was going to feel like it was not nice with Liam but reflecting on it, I realized it was fine. Sid doesn’t own Liam anything, by Liam’s own insistence. No promises were made, and if we’re honest, Sid and Liam still barely know each other, besides their burning attraction. So, the way Charlie devoured Sid’s body and his cock was filthy, sensual and HOT. I love the fact Charlie is Dom Bottom, it’s so rare to see a writer use this kind of character. A bottom who knows just how much his ass is worth to the hungry tops around him lol. The fact that they had an audience to their sex was even better too, I was almost disappointed things didn’t evolve to a full orgy in the middle of the sidewalk, and fuck everyone who may pass by and see them lol. But, sadly, Charlie already drained Sid’s cock at that point. A missed opportunity for sure, it would be a funny sex story lol “remember that time I was at an orgy in the middle of the street? Hahahaha that night was wild”.
Speaking of orgy, Liam was right at the lion's den, right? But at least once, he acts like a lion instead of another rabbit. He detects Ryan’s bullshit fast, because that is not really a novelty for him, right? Liam is attentive; it’s both the boon and the curse of these people to catch up on the little details. Everything Liam saw does not really shock him because deep down is something already expected. Not that I think Liam was expecting to find Ryan hosting a full SEX PARTY for the whole neighborhood... but he knew it was something that would disappoint him. And let’s not forget, Liam was already aware of Ryan’s infidelity. At first, I was wondering what could have possibly made him grow some balls, but then I understood it was probable fear. Fear and the knowledge that this would be a habit. A frequent one. The lies, the hiding, the knowledge of Ryan’s sudden reunions or works trips would just be shallow excuses for him to be with other guys. And the most serious of all: the fact Ryan wanted to separate Liam from his kinky life, like if Ryan’s life was anything but kink. He will never be honest with Liam, he will never respect Liam, and he will never let Liam be really part of Silver Lake because he’s too selfish to let Liam have the same freedoms he has. So, I think Liam was smart about this. He weighs everything he probably would endure in Ryan’s side in the future and realizes it’s not worth it. Good for him, now I want to see if he’s man enough to keep his word.
Hey GOT my loves,
Holy shit… I just spent a solid ten minutes reading your comment and I’m genuinely impressed. This is one of the longest, most passionate, and most detailed comments I’ve received so far. You didn’t just read the chapter — you dissected it like a surgeon with a scalpel and a lot of feelings 😂 I had to grab coffee before replying because you brought up so many strong points.
First of all, thank you. Seriously. Comments like this are absolute gold for a writer. You’re not just reacting — you’re thinking deeply about motivations, consequences, hypocrisy, and the emotional weight of every decision. I appreciate that more than you know.
Let’s talk about the big ones.
You said you despise Mackie right now… and honestly? I get it. A lot of readers are feeling that heat toward him at this moment. You’re right that he was the one who pushed for opening the marriage, he was the one who crossed lines with Aaron, and then he hid the messages for a whole week while knowing exactly how much it would hurt Brandon. That’s not just a mistake — that’s repeated choices. The “I’m confused” card does feel like a cop-out, and the fact he answered in present tense (“there IS”) instead of reassuring Brandon… yeah, that stings. You nailed the frustration many people are feeling.
At the same time, I love that you’re still able to see both sides. Brandon going nuclear with Tyler in public was cruel and humiliating. You’re correct — even while getting sucked off, Brandon’s mind and eyes were locked on Mackie. He was trying to hurt him as badly as he was hurting. That doesn’t excuse it, but it explains the ugly place it came from. Pain makes people do ugly things.
The Aaron and Noah situation… fuck. You went straight for the throat and I felt every word. Noah has been the one putting in effort to welcome everyone, to make people feel safe, and he keeps getting emotionally gutted for it. The fact that almost no one checked on him after the fight… that one hurts. Noah deserved better in that moment.
Your point about Aaron’s “safe vs fire” excuse being the same tired bullshit we’ve seen before is so sharp. It really does feel like some characters keep using the same justification for their selfishness. Aaron has everything — an open marriage, a husband who adores him, total freedom — and it’s still not enough. That’s a brutal kind of greed.
On the White Party itself… you’re spot on about how public humiliation changes everything. Kink should be private for a reason. Now the whole neighborhood has seen Mackie crying while his husband got sucked off in front of him. That kind of image doesn’t fade easily. Silver Lake is about to feel a lot smaller and a lot more judgmental for both of them.
I also laughed (and cringed) at your point about the recordings. Yeah… phones were out. That’s going to have consequences.
And Sid & Charlie? I’m glad you enjoyed the filthiness of that scene 😂 Charlie really is something else. The armpit moment was extra for a reason.
Liam pulling Mackie out and actually being the voice of reason was one of my favorite surprises too. He’s petty as hell, but he’s not stupid. And you’re right — his decision to walk away from Ryan was probably driven by fear of the future more than anything else. He saw the pattern and chose to protect himself.
Overall, I’m really happy the chapter made you feel this strongly — angry, frustrated, sad, and still invested enough to write this massive analysis. That’s exactly what I was hoping for. The story is in a very dark, messy place right now, and everyone is bleeding in different ways.
Thank you again for taking the time to write such a long, thoughtful, and honest comment. These kinds of deep dives help me so much as I plan the coming chapters. I’m really glad you’re still here riding this chaotic, painful, and sometimes spicy rollercoaster with me.
I’m very curious to hear what you think when you catch up to the newer chapters (no spoilers, I promise). Whenever your brain is ready, I’ll be here waiting for the next novel-length essay 😂
Seriously though — thank you. Comments like yours are why I love writing this story. Thank you so muchhh babe I luv u!
But I’m stepping ahead of things; I not even tell what I think about him rescuing Mackie from that fiasco with Brandon and Tyler. When Liam was first introduced, I thought of him as some petty, stupid guy. I still think he’s petty, but he’s not stupid. Who would think he could be the voice of reason here? And even if Liam doesn’t have all the facts, he raises some very valid questions: why did Mackie just stand there just crying while another man sucked his husband cock? Was because of shock? Or because deep down he was, again, waiting for Brandon to take action so he doesn’t have to deal with anything? I know Mackie wanted to go back after Brandon, and I def think what Brandon did with Mackie is not ok, but every time I see Mackie’s tears, I become a little pissed because it feels like he’s playing the victim. I KNOW he’s genuinely hurt, maybe even confused with how things turned out so wrong and so fast, but right now it really feels like he’s the incapable baby Brandon paints him to be, because it was necessary Liam to slap some sense into him for him to AT LEAST react properly. Maybe that’s what Mackie really needs: someone to slap the shit out of him. I even know who I want this person to be lol.
Brandon and Aaron’s fight was something coming for a long time. And I was rooting for Brandon the entire time. I wish he turned Aaron’s face into mashed potatoes because that is exactly what he deserves. But besides that, being a moment between then, I couldn’t stop thinking about the other victim, perhaps the ONLY victim, of Mackie and Aaron’s actions, and how nobody, not even one second, thinks about him: Noah. He was completely, utterly, totally humiliated. Brandon screamed Aaron was cheating on him, Aaron enters a fist fight for another man and not even THINK about him, despite all his cries for it to stop. It was Mackie’s presence who put a stop to it, who drained the fight out of them, of his husband. How humiliating must that be? How heartbreaking? How confusing, revolting and unfair is that Mackie, Brandon and Aaron humiliate him like that in front of the whole neighborhood the way they did and not for a second any of them think about Noah’s side or the repercussions for him, even after everything Noah did to make the three of them to feel safe and welcomed, to feel like they belong? And I say repercussions because I also feel like Silver Lake is over party for Noah. Not for Aaron, with his muscles and his presence, nobody would ever say anything to his face. But Noah? No one will see him the same again. Now every time Noah talks with someone there, that person will think about the events of that night, maybe mock him on his back, or even worse, pity him. And Noah will be forever haunted by the fact they KNOW. Even more heartbreaking than that is the fact even after the fight ended, Mackie was still the center of everyone’s attention. He was the one people were worried about; the one people wanted to comfort. Even Bret was arguing with Tyler because of what he did with MACKIE. No one, not a single person, not even for a piece of second, not even Bernie and Hunter, reflected that perhaps Noah needed as much care as Mackie at that moment. No, not as much; Noah was the one who needed ALL the care. Mackie doesn’t deserve shit (yeah, I’m angry again writing that hahaha). And I confess I’m extremely pissed off by the preview of the next chapter, knowing Noah will forgive Aaron after this. Aaron doesn’t deserve forgiveness. After this chapter, I really think eventually Noah should demand divorce and leave Silver Lake. He deserves someone better, a real man, who can be kinky as hell with him in an open relationship but respect him as a man and as a partner. And I think Noah needs some better friends too lol.
And then we have Brandon and Mackie’s fight after the White Party, and I can’t even pronounce how PISSED of Mackie that leaves me. That guy was a fucking hypocrite. It happens what I knew it would happen, and I talk about its last chapter: Mackie turned something that is also his fault into Brandon’s fault. How dare Mackie even TALK about “form of emotional domestic abuse under the broadest interpretation of psychological harm”? What about the psychological harm he’s been doing with Brandon? Let’s not forget, Mackie conveniently forgets to tell Brandon about the week of secret texts with Aaron, and now he’s comfortable playing the victim because this is what Mackie does best: let others take the blame for his mistakes. I disagree a little with Brandon saying he treats Mackie that way because of Shay and the firm's problems too. To me, things in their marriage were already shaken ever since the arrangement with Aaron and Noah, and that fracture made Brandon more vulnerable to Shay’s problems, not the other way around. Also, let’s not forget, even in the middle of this shit storm, Brandon was the one trying to fix things. He was the one to say sorry (like I knew he would), even when he had real reasons to be stressed. And he was the one who asks, BEG for Mackie to reassure him there were no feelings involved. He just needed to be reassured at that moment. And of course, being Mackie, he couldn’t do even that. Let me make myself clear here: I don’t want Mackie to LIE; lies would just make things even worse. But the question was “was there feelings?” and he just answered “yes”. There was no reassuring, there was no complement, no “but I had felt for him is nothing even close to what I feel for you”. Mackie just put salt in a wound bleeding, especially because he said, “there IS”, no “there WAS”. Present tense. Feelings for Aaron that persist after everything Aaron did, after everything that went wrong. So, as you see, I really can’t be on Mackie's side in this one. I know Mackie and Brandon are endgame, and I still think Mackie (not Brandon, Mackie) can save his marriage, but right now if they get a divorce and leave each other, I wouldn’t be sad either lol. Mackie for sure doesn’t know how to cherish his own husband. Perhaps Eun Yoo can teach him something or two about that.
Fantastic chapter, Dannieboy! This rollercoaster was intense, but I love to ride it with you!
OK. So the lines are becoming clearer.
The alphas (Brandon, Aaron, Ryan, Shay, maybe Sid but we who are on this chapter don’t know yet) are all at some level feeling entitled to have a guy at their side who questions nothing and lets them make decisions. Aaron not valuing Noah & boning everything with a pulse. Brandon feeling like he can keep Mackie’s leash short. Ryan’s treatment of Liam. Sid’s interest in Liam so easily sidetracked by Charlie. Shay feeling like everyone is his to own.
The betas are silently (or not so silently) rebelling in their own attempts to maintain/claim their agency. And it’s messy. Noah compensating by being the caretaker. Mackie actively and knowingly breaking his commitments to Brandon. Liam letting himself dismiss Ryan’s horrible treatment while secretly figuring out if Sid’s a “something”.
Silverlake is its own character here. And a devilish one. It feeds and inspires people’s worst instincts and behaviors. Or maybe it’s just toxic “too many gays in one place becomes toxic and incestuous.”
I’ve been on Teams Brandon & Noah. However, I’m beginning to understand that there’s no purity to be found with any of these guys - and that’s exactly the point.
I also love these long-form chapters, Dannieboy. They give us more context on the woven overlaps and give YOU more runway for character development.
Thank you so much for this comment babe and sorry for the late reply.
I really appreciate how deeply you’re analyzing the story and the characters. You picked up on a lot of the themes I’ve been trying to explore — especially the entitlement of the “alphas” and how Silver Lake seems to bring out the worst (and sometimes the most honest) parts of people.
You’re right that there’s no real “purity” here. Almost everyone is messy, selfish, or hypocritical in their own way. That’s very much on purpose. I didn’t want to write a story where one side is clearly the villain and the other is innocent. Everyone has their own damage, their own desires, and their own justifications. Even the characters we root for (like Brandon and Noah) have done questionable things.
I also love that you mentioned Silver Lake itself feeling like its own character. That’s exactly how I see it — this neighborhood has its own toxic ecosystem. It rewards certain behaviors and punishes others, and the longer people stay in it, the more it warps them. Some characters are thriving in it, while others are slowly breaking.
As for the long-form chapters… thank you. I know they’re long, but I really enjoy giving the characters (and the relationships) enough space to breathe. It lets me show the gray areas instead of just the big dramatic moments. I’m glad you’re enjoying that style.
Your perspective on the alphas vs betas dynamic is really interesting, and I think you’ll see more of that tension play out in future chapters. Thanks again for taking the time to write such a thoughtful comment. It genuinely helps me see the story from different angles.
Keep reading and keep sharing your thoughts! luv u babe :))